Dear God, I Hate Myself

Xiu Xiu Dear God, I Hate Myself Lyrics
1.Gray Death

beat beat me to death i said it
beat beat me to death
grey death beat me
jimmy is begging

if you are expecting consolation
i will become outrageous
if you expect me to be outrageous
i will be extra outrageous
chew the corner off your mouth
you have never liked the taste

beat beat me to death i said it
beat beat me to death
grey death beat me
jimmy is crying

you were beautiful when i loved you
my little bank robbing boy
you were beautiful when i lost you
like whip covered in pins and glue
when will it end oh when will it end
this sopping wet towel of stupidity

supplicated to the fawn
fold back my pajama sleeves
take a look at what i have done
you can protect nothing
beat beat me to death i said it
beat beat me to death
grey death beat me
jimmy is in flames

beat beat me to death i said it
beat beat me to death
jimmy is aborted


2.Chocolate Makes You Happy

chocolate makes you happy
and it keeps you awake
as you unbutton
your top pants button
bewildered by the pain oh oh oh
chocolate makes you happy
as you deign to sing along
when you thrust two fingers
down your throat and
wash away what's wrong
oh oh oh

out of your mind with happiness
incredibly dumb, incredibly ugly
to have die the one you await for
all that you sign all that you sign
and wait for
out of your mind with whorishness
incredibly young, incredibly filthy
oh to curse both your life and death
oh to curse life, oh to curse life
and death!
chocolate makes you happy
and it keeps you awake
as you unbutton
your top pants button
bewildered by the pain oh oh oh
chocolate makes you happy
like a credit to the race
as you ruminate in the arms of coco
on the fatness of your face

out of you mind with slavishness
rough close and cold
rough close and cold
to have die that one you await for
all that you sign, blush, wish and pray for
out of you mind embarrassment
out of you mind
out of your mind
out of your mind out of
chocolate makes you happy
and it keeps you awake
as you unbutton your elaborate garter
bewildered by desire
oh oh oh


3.Apple For A Brain

an apple for a brain
a bee for a best man
a panda is yourself
and you holding Butter's hand
oh yeah yeah yeah

when and why is it us?
bearing thy cross of shame

lu lu lu lu lu
lu lu lu lu lu
sha la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la

so hideous for a boy
so hideous on a boy
i wanted to forget
so ugly for a boy

a dispraise for what i am
a cartoon with no friends
oh yeah yeah yeah

lu lu lu lu lu
lu lu lu lu lu
sha la la la la la la
sha la la la la la la

when and why is it us?
bearing thy cross of shame
so hideous for a boy
so hideous on a boy
i wanted to forget
Pandapple spoke to me
Pandapple called my name
so ugly for a boy


4.House Sparrow

defrock human
no one stole you
day light murder
from your front room

distilled violent
keep safe
please God!
i got away pedophile
i made it into my own little
Christian school
flung far thy serial will to kill
i got away i got away

drip drip spatter
sparkle glasses
decayed panties
grow up and be good!

i got away lustmord
i made it into my own little
Sacramento
flung far thy thick unconvertible need
i got away i got away
i got away pedophile
i made it into my own little
Christian school
flung far thy serial will to kill
i got away i got away

i got out Richard Chase
i made it to my pink and padlocked door
flung far your thirst to destroy me
i got away i got away


5.Hyunhye's Theme

reading law at your desk
praying for your parents
they are so proud of this
you are working so hard
all alone at your desk
obligated to free them

labor concern as a good girl
you curse the night that is calling
labor in doubt as a good girl

seo seo seo seo
seo seo seo seo seo

love to diaspora
de life en le valley oh oh oh oh oh

you are working so hard
sitting still at your desk
pusan weighing upon you
fending off all distress
glitter for your parents
hoping in discount clothing

seo seo seo
seo seo seo
seo seo seo
seo seo seo

finding the slacks you will fit in
wearing the shoes that you'll look good in

overwhelmed at your desk
weeping for your parents
they are so proud of this
shining in ambition
all alone all alone all alone


6.Dear God,I Hate Myself

Xiu Xiu - Dear God, I Hate Myself
despair will hold a place in my heart
a bigger one that you do do do
and i will always be nicer to the cat
than i am to you you you you
dear God, i hate myself
dear God, i hate myself
and i will never be happy
and i will never feel normal

don't ask me is this line is about you

what do they do there tonite tonite?
why do they go there alright alright?
why do they live there tonite tonite?
and why do they live at all alright alright?
dear God, i hate myself
dear God, i hate myself
and i will never be happy
and i will never feel normal

why do they live there tonite tonite?
and why do they live at all alright alright?
flip off the mirror as protest
who the F-word are you you you?

and i will never be happy
and i will never feel normal
dear God, i hate myself
dear God, i hate myself


7.Secret Motel

L.A. give me some of you
L.A. L.A. come to me
i've come to you
reduce it to dust
all that was a promise
reduce it to dust
oh disintegrate

secrets
its best you not know
i'll never tell
push me, i'll never tell
stupid
it's best i don't say
i won't recall
choke me i won't recall

OH
i must be insane
OhiO
duncical is the refrain
the genius off all the chumps
ding dong
chastity has faded away
du du du du du du du du du
sweetheart
its best you not know
i'll never tell
face it, i'll never tell
hush hush
it's best i don't say
kill me i won't recall

J.S. what is wrong with you
J.S.N.M. come to me i'll ruin you

secrets
it's best you not know
i'll never tell
swearing i'll never tell


8.Falkland Rd.

there was never a chance to get away
when was it only ever but perverse
why could they take a stone and break your arms
there could be nothing worse
except to live
live little girl
sold in slavery
twenty-five men
have their way in you
burned upon the breast
with a cigarette
nothing is worse than to be born and live

there was someone at home you cared
when was there anyone who cared for you
why could they a spoon and break your teeth
there could be nothing worse
except to live

live blighted girl
sold in slavery
twenty-five men
have their way in you
burned upon the feet
with a cigarette

earth has lost and lost its youth
tomorrow, tomorrow will be no happy days
you will die and die and falkland road
your ashes will reek of sweat


9.The Fabrizio Palumbo Retaliation

Lean against the stove
Leave it glowing in the dark
Push my hand to the coil
It is burnt now
Forever
Cherry blossoms fall
And for a minute there
I have the will to live
But then the cuckoo cries
Hey hey hey hey

You constantly aspire
To the be the first your pierce
Your dagger into fondness
It will hurt now
Forever
Cherry blossoms fall
And for a twinkle there
I have the will to live
But then gomorrah calls
Hey hey hey hey

'caterpillar girl
Here you are'

Cherry blossoms melt
And for a weekend there
I have the will to go on
But then it fades to
Pink
Pink
Pink
Pink
Pink
Pink
Pink


10.Cumberland Gap


11.This Too Shall Pass Away (For Freddy)

you cut her name into your heart
you burn his name into your arm
cast out the pig you kiss as love
heaven is closed for now you are alone
this too, this too shall pass away
this too, this too will pass away
listen, Steven is singing to you
the pain of life you wipe away
a reason, that fine gray ash shall
recall these days inquire
the serpent
to become a rag of a dream interred you arrive
and you wave as if she could care
but she can't
nor can you
the relinquishing and a flickering
out of loss
this too, this too shall pass away
this too, this too shall fade away
listen, Steven is singing to us
the pain of life you wipe away
this too, this too shall pass away
this too, this too shall fade away
listen, Steven is singing to us
the pain of life you wipe away

perhaps depraved is who you are
why not?
depraved at least you're not alone
overcome by the truth you face that you can't
get up or look up at the moon
without throwing up and it
stay the same all the time
lie and wait
it stop again like a bee
it will die
when it stings you once
and its small bee's head will fall off

this too, this too shall pass away
this too, this too shall fade away
listen, Steven is singing to you
the pain of life you wipe away


12.Impossible Feeling

spelling in bruises
'crazy iris'
writing out in welts
'the morbid iris'
intolerable
incomprehensible

you can never earn enough
to buy the gun that you want
so you photograph the marks
but the blood you spite
sputters up up up up
out out out out

up and up
up and up

drafted in a gash
'out of focus iris'

fill up the bath with glass
and cover your face
in the shroud of impossible feeling
in the shroud of impossible feeling
in the shroud of the impossible feeling